An Inspirational Quote
When cancer knocks you down – calmly get back up, smile and very politely say, “You Hit Like A B*%$H”!!!
I’ve heard some people say that inspirational quotes are stupid. For me, I find them to be very uplifting, inspirational, a reminder to boost your spirits and refocus your day. Of course when I saw this quote it immediately registered with me, and this is when I knew I had to fight. I mean fight for real, as in take action and none of that talk the talk stuff. I mean it really made me want to win the battle.
Let’s face it, when some people first here bad news, (I’m one of them) it knocks you down, and you feel sorry for yourself. So after the FRIGHT, it became the FIGHT.
When Cancer Knocked
On September 27, 2016, I was diagnosed with a blood cancer (Leukemia), and as you can imagine, it was a huge blow to me and my family. Before the diagnosis, I had been feeling really sick for a couple of months like I was coming down with a stomach bug. There was the nausea, dizziness, and vomiting when I ate and then came a severe tiredness that I had never felt in my life. I would load the dishwasher and felt like I had ran twenty miles. I knew something was not right, so I went to see my doctor. I immediately suggested to my doctors that I may have cancer. Of course the doctor looked at me like I had nineteen heads, but she ran every test in the book anyways. Everything came back normal. (Well so I thought and I explain this further down)
It was shocking to hear my Doctor say everything is normal as I know my body better than anyone, and I still insisted something was wrong. I just knew in my heart something wasn’t right. Finally after two months of testing and getting nowhere with my doctor, I decided to go to the Emergency Room. (That was September 19, 2016). The doctors first ran a CBC blood test which came back with an extremely high white blood cell count. The E.R. doctor did tell me that when I was previously in the E.R. on July 9th, my white blood cell counts were normal. Anyway, the E.R. doctor hospitalized me.
The next day, I put a call in to my primary care doctor and asked the nurse what was my white blood cell count from my most recent blood test, and the nurse told me my last CBC blood test was in January 2016 and it was normal. So are you confused? Yeah I was too. I asked how that can be as you guys have sent me for several blood tests. I was then advised well those test was for something else. I was livid! My doctor totally ignored my suspicion for cancer and never did what I assume to be standard blood testing.
The Emergency Room Doctor and The Cancer Suspicion
The E.R. Doctor, well the E.R. Oncologist came in and started asking me if my family had a history of cancer. It seemed at the time like I was being asked a hundred questions. So I asked the doctor what do you suspect, and the doctor answered that she suspects that I have Leukemia. Can you say d@mn because I did! She then advised me to have a bone marrow biopsy to rule it out. I reluctantly but immediately agreed.
The Bone Marrow Biopsy
Let me tell you, thats the most horrific pain I have ever felt in my life. I literally thought I was going to die. (I apologize to anyone who is reading this and may be in need of a bone marrow biopsy. I’m just being honest, that ish hurts). Once that was over, they sent me home the next day and advised me to make an appointment immediately with an Oncologist.
My First Appointment with the Oncologist
This was the most I was afraid to be at a doctor’s appointment. The waiting on my name to be called seemed as if it took twelve hours. Finally, I was called back and met Dr. Oncologist. He was nice and advised that he had not yet received my bone marrow results; therefore, he had to call the E.R. and get them to fax them over. Ugg, more waiting!
After about thirty minutes Dr. Oncologist came in and told me the diagnosis. I already knew this answer, but it still hit me like a ton of bricks.
After days of feeling sorry for myself, I saw the quote above and that’s when my heart told my brain to wake up and get with the program, because my heart already had FAITH IN GOD. And with GOD all things are possible!
Even though most of my days are filled with feeling sick, not wanting to eat, not wanting to get dress, and pretty much not wanting to do anything, I knew I had to take the fight to cancer and take control of my life. This is how LookFab.Kim was born. It is my outlet and my journey that I have chosen to share with all of you. If I can just inspire one person and connect with those who can inspire me too: then I know I have chosen what’s right for me.
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